...if Adam wouldn't have been so damn stupid, we would still be walking around in all of our naked glory. I ponder, is the quest for knowledge more sinful than placing blame? I digress...
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
...I'm not crying anymore, but I'm damn glad I didn't hear this shit when I was. Onto a more serious note, something ab exaggerated colors, cartoonized locs and beads, and tears just eats away at my soul. The hell thought this was a good visual? So what if most people during this era wee doped up on whatever vice they had, nobody had good sense? Sigh...
Shots, punctures, penetration... things of which I have never been a fan, but somehow I'm in love with this needle,
and I'm a fiend for the liquid sin within it. Inject me with your daily dose of lust filled malice, riddle my blood with
forget me nots" so that my heart beats for you, and then fill my head with sugar laced lies so that my mind loathes
you... Inner conflict has become the norm, turning my once sacred temple into little more than a war ravaged shack.
Empty and dark, the soul of an addict, craving that which my stomach can not digest... A love I can neither fathom
nor ignore... An itch in the nether-regions of my heart that I.just.can.not.scratch. My neck cranes and my heart
yearns for your syringe, and as I reached for it, I saw my savior, my blessed assurance, the culmination of sheer
sincerity... A soul ascended from the bowels of simplicity, determined to save me, a poor love drunken harlot, and I
denied him. I refused his soft touch, denounced his desire to care, and laughed at his purity... Instead of the sweet
taste of love and infatuation I preferred the metallic codeine of deceit. I jerked my hand from his grasp and dropped
my gaze. As I reached for my needle, my salvation, he wept. From my lips escaped "just one more time," and I felt
my affliction taking over. I pressed the tip to my skin and exhaled, relinquishing my mind to the torments of this
drug one last time. Instead of the bliss filled reveries of before, I saw a single ball of light, a halo, an angel, my
angel... He looked broken, defeated, yet he smiled. Just knowing that I had found my solace, no matter how
detrimental it was, he smiled. My stoic face relaxed to form a smile and just as it did, the form changed. My mind
went black. One last time I saw the light, only this time something obscured the flame, it was burning something. I
stretched my arm to grasp it, the movement disturbing my trance... Upon opening my eyes, I saw the burnt spoon,
the syringe, and the liquid lust it once contained on the floor, and I thought, was it ever worth the prick?
...you don't have to get it. Just a stream of consciousness type thing, better known as word vomit.